I am thankful to have partnered with my local television station, WLFI, to share part of my own story about dealing with mental health issues.
WEST LAFAYETTE, Ind. (WLFI) — A new CDC report said suicides increased by 30% in the US in nearly two decades. When a West Lafayette man heard those statistics, he wanted his story heard.
As each morning comes, sometimes the hardest part of your day can just be getting out of bed. Just a few months ago, the start of the day for Chris Adam, was intolerable.
“Everything just felt like I was in a box, just full of this depression,” said Adam. “Every day just felt the same.”
Adam struggles has struggled with depression since his teen years. Like others, he battles internal complications with his identity and beliefs.
On the outside, his co-workers nicknamed him “captain happy.” But on the inside, he said he just wanted an escape from the every day pain.
One day, after spending weeks in bed calling off work, the pressures of life, he thought, became too much to handle.
“That was the day I was going to take my own life,” said Adam.
Thankfully, his story doesn’t end there. It’s actually, where it begins.
“I had two choices that day,” said Adam. “I could take my own life, or I could try to go get help.”
What he learned, was that he had the power inside himself. He was in control.
“The first, I needed to learn to love myself,” said Adam. “The second, is how to change my thought patterns. There really is hope. Not in a generic sense that ‘oh there’s hope, things are going to get better,’ but the sense that I can keep going, even if this is difficult.”
Even though it’s something people don’t like talking about, Adam is going to keep talking about it. He does so in his new blog.
“I like to write and express myself through writing,” said Adam. “I’m able to take what I’ve learned, my experiences, and hopefully be able to help other people.”
“Looking back on it, I take the blame for what happened, but I wish people who saw changes in my behavior would have pushed me harder, or asked questions or said ‘something’s different,’ said Adam.
He said it’s all in how you look at it.
“I needed to change from a victim to a victor mindset. Essentially what that means to me is that this depression, suicidal thoughts, they don’t own me and I have ownership over them.”
Chris is training to be a counselor for the nationwide text crisis line. He continues to battle depression but has hope for himself, and others, knowing he is a victor.
If you or someone you know is struggling the Mental Health America Wabash Valley center is standing by. You can call or text (765) 742-0244, 24 hours a day, seven days a week.